Broken Hearts

+++ Ernest L. Mathews, Jr. +++

Rest eternal grant him, O Lord and let light perpetual shine upon him

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Only 3 days ago, I asked once again for prayers for my father-in-law and mentioned a bit about him, his accomplishments and his role in my life. It is now with great sadness, I must say, he was unable to fight the infection and passed to Our Lord on Tuesday, the feast of Saint Matthew. I am happy to have written a fitting tribute to him. For the record, I have revealed his name. Please keep his dear soul and our family in prayer. Thank you.

Update

I am still looking at things comprehensibly and working on a plan for this blog. We have unfinished projects and also improvements that need to be made. My personal life is kind of crazy right now for a variety of reasons, and probably will be for several months. Please accept my apologies for the unfinished projects. I would probably like to lighten up things here for a while and then, when I’m in a better position, work aggressively at some of those projects, particularly the “Prepper Rosary Program.”

We continue to ask for prayer for my dear father-in-law, who is 88 years old and has recently been transferred to a nursing home.  He was just moved to the hospital, with an infection. It is very sad, the condition he is in.  The family is rallying together now to address many existing complications (insurance errors, getting his hospital bed removed from the house, dealing with damage from a recent bad flood, etc.) and simply supporting each other during this very difficult time.  This affects me too, of course.

I will tell you a bit about my husband’s father, without mentioning his name, for privacy reasons. He was an influential Manhattan attorney, arguing several cases at the Supreme Court and winning a ground-breaking case for the Saint Patrick’s Day Parade against the homosexual activists, back in the 90’s.  He was a regular guest on Court TV and news programs.  He knew many of the New York movers and shakers, particularly in Catholic intellectual circles.  He was always an advocate of the Tridentine Mass, and when it was allowed again in the late 80’s, went immediately to attend it, accompanied by myself, at the age of 21.  As I describe in my bio (to the right), this changed my life.  He has been like a surrogate father for me, since my father died when I was 7 years old and I met my husband when I was 17.  He paid my rent for me when I was out of money and did countless other wonderful things for me and for many others. Mr. Mathews has also contributed generously to the ministry of this website. 

Another issue confronting us right now is the encroaching Covid mandates and the concerns this raises.  We are talking about selling our house and moving to a rural area, where it hopefully will be more safe.  We devout Catholics must start thinking in terms of creating rural refuges and there is no time to waste.  Our house is nowhere near being ready to sell, so we are aggressively working on that.

One day at a time is all any of us can do…with prayer.  Thank you for your prayers and understanding…and my readers are always in my prayers as well.  Please stay tuned-I will continue at the very least to do the 1st of the Month posts.

A Message of Encouragement from Taylor Marshall:

…in the Face of Mandates, Trad Wars and Fatigue

I haven’t been in the best mood today since Biden’s new vaccination mandates are going to affect my husband. It seems, every other day, some terrible stress is coming along…as Leonard Cohen said, it’s “Closing Time.” The whole world is engulfed-I know it is not just my family. My heart goes out to all of you who are also suffering with many things at this hour, some of the normal sufferings of life, along with what the New World Order is dishing out. In a recent post, I asked for prayers for my father-in-law. He was just moved to a Catholic nursing home in New York. We are very concerned about his well-being because they only allow one-hour visits (because of Covid, of course), and he does not like to be alone. This will surely deteriorate his condition mentally, and most likely physically as well. Just one more Covid contradiction. It’s not about saving lives. It never was. Another strange thing about this nursing home is that they make you remove the mask upon entry and put a different one on. Not only have you just theoretically increased Covid exposure by removing the mask, you have also just touched the mask they feel is contaminated, in addition to your face. They also require appointments to visit, which must be made 24 hours in advance. They don’t always pick up the phone (apparently visitation doesn’t need to be a priority in a nursing home) and they ask for all kinds of personal information when you visit (perhaps for tracing if there is a Covid case). “Safe & Healthy!”

All of this makes for great challenge, needless to say. Tonight, as I reluctantly glanced at what the YouTube gods decided to send my way, the video above popped up. It’s exactly what I needed. We all need encouragement right now, and going forward. Marshall gives some very good advice and gives a strong witness about the importance of the Holy Rosary. If you’re feeling down too, please watch…and know Our Blessed Lord is always with us!

September is the Month of Our Lady of Sorrows

In this month of Our Lady of Sorrows, if you are not familiar with the “Seven Sorrows Chaplet,” here is where you can purchase one. Mine is shown above, depicting Our Lady with seven swords piercing her Immaculate Heart, the month of which we have just celebrated. It has been such a blessing to pray this chaplet over the years, as a family. In addition to the feast of Our Lady of Sorrows, we honor Our Blessed Mother in 4 other major feasts this month.

We celebrate 5 Doctors of the Church in September. As I stated last month, I am now indicating a major work authored by each Doctor. Please consider reading some of these wonderful works of Holy Church’s antiquity. Obtaining good quality hard-cover books is a great idea from a “prepper” point of view. How long before these classics are considered “unessential items?” We have several 20th Century saints this month and also the Ember Days in September, traditional days of penance and prayer for the coming season. Ember Days are wonderful to celebrate with children, incorporating crafts and giving them a love for the Catholic Faith and her traditions.

Let us remember the 20th anniversary of the attacks on the United States on September 11th, 2001. Let us offer prayers for those departed, along with their loved ones…for those who continue to suffer with physical and mental disability…and for those responsible. Lord have mercy.

Here is a sampling of feasts for this month:

9/3-First Friday / Pope St. Gregory the Great, Doctor of the Church, author Pastoral Care / Pope St. Pius X, 20th Century Saint

9/4-First Saturday

9/5-St. Teresa of Calcutta, Founder of the Missionaries of Charity, 20th Century Saint

9/8-BIRTH OF THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY

9/12-MOST HOLY NAME OF MARY

9/13-St. John Chrysostom, Doctor of the Church, author On the Priesthood

9/14-Exaltation of the Holy Cross

9/15-OUR LADY OF SORROWS (new) / SEVEN SORROWS OF OUR LADY (trad)

9/17-St. Robert Bellarmine, Doctor of the Church, author The Controversies / St. Hildegard of Bingen, Doctor of the Church, author Scivias (Know the Ways of the Lord) / Stigmata of St. Francis of Assisi

9/19-OUR LADY OF LA SALETTE

9/21-St. Matthew, Apostle, Evangelist of Gospel, Martyr

9/22-Ember Wednesday in September (trad meat at one meal)

9/23-St. Pio of Pietralcina, 20th Century Saint

9/24-OUR LADY OF RANSOM / Ember Friday in September

9/25-Ember Saturday in September (trad meat at one meal)

9/27-St. Vincent de Paul, Founder of the Vincentians

9/29-Sts. Michael, Gabriel & Raphael / Michaelmas Day

9/30-St. Jerome, Doctor of the Church, author Latin Vulgate Bible

Please Pray...

Having written about hurricanes just yesterday, I am compelled to ask for prayers for those in the path of Hurricane Ida in the southern US. I in fact, have a family member there, so this is very personal for me. Thank you for your prayers. Lord, have mercy. Blessed Virgin Mary, pray for us. Saint Joseph, pray for us. Saint John the Baptist (the feast of his passion is today), pray for us. Angels, protect us. Jesus, we trust in Thee!

UPDATE: We prayed the Rosary last night during the height of the storm as it passed over my family member’s area (this gave me incredible consolation-what a blessing the Rosary is!). He was able to communicate through cellphone and he is okay (this was very fortunate because not all cell service is working). However, there are still concerns and the people there still need prayers (also those in the path of what is now a tropical storm). Remaining issues are search and rescue, ability to deal with emergencies, flooding, massive power outages, those without provisions, and the chaos that can result post-disaster. I must say, as much as I hate the mainstream news, CNN has been doing an amazing job. Please see cnn.com for continued coverage on Hurricane Ida. It is good, from a preparedness point of view to read the articles carefully because this is a valuable real-life learning experience for us all. Let us pray for the deceased, their families, and those still suffering and in danger. Please think about praying the Rosary tonight with your family. As long as I’m asking for prayer, my father-in-law is seriously unwell, so please remember him as well. I will remember my dear readers in prayer also. Thank you.

UPDATE #2: The northeast got pounded by the remnants of Ida and sadly, there are many lives lost, mainly due to flash floods (including on Long Island). It is a weekend of mourning for these souls and prayers for their families. Some are still missing. There is no further word from my relative in New Orleans. We assume he is without power, but hopefully he is managing okay. My father-in-law has made a bit of improvement, so we are very happy about that. Thank you for your continued prayers.

UPDATE #3: My family member in New Orleans is still without power one week later, but was able to charge his phone somewhere and let us know he is managing. He seems he has been “through the wars” and we continue to pray for his well-being and safety.

UPDATE #4: He was without power for 10 days and is now getting more back to normal. Thank you Lord! 10 days? I gotta think a bit more about how I would make coffee without power…hmmmmmmmmm.

Hurricane Henri: Real-Life Preparedness Situation

Our Lady of the Island, Pray for Us!

Our Lady of the Island Shrine ~ Manorville, Long Island

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Exactly one week ago, the news was predicting an imminent hurricane, with winds up to 110 mph, likely flooding and power outages…headed straight for my house on Long Island. What do you do when you are in this situation? You secure your home as best as possible. Then you leave. If you can. And we did.

However, I never worry too much because…A) I trust in God B) We are preppers C) We’ve already had lots of experience with crazy stuff here in New York, from 9/11 to being the Covid epicenter to all your New York lunatics running around. So, my general feeling was…here we go again. And as a prepper, I am always grateful for one more real-life learning experience. There is even some sense of excitement for weirdos like me. Looking back on all the other things, I can see how much I learned and how much stronger I feel as a result. It also gives me the life experience to help lead others through the chastisement which is now upon the world. Hence, this ministry.

We spent the whole day before the storm securing everything outside and leaving things the best we could (appliances, computers, etc, that you really care about should be unplugged due to potential power surges which can short them out…but no, we did not shut off the fridge, but we took all the food we could, due to a possible outage). We also left our phone number with the neighbors in case the house was damaged (we have a lot of trees, which we just had trimmed, along with taking down a few which were hanging over the house-this gave us much peace of mind). When we got on the road, it became clear that lots of other people had the same idea…leave. Did I mention you should have a full tank of gas? (Always keep it at least half full.) Prior to Hurricane Katrina in New Orleans, people ran out of gas on the road, the traffic was so bad.

Regarding another Hurricane Katrina detail, don’t go to the Superdome. If everyone is going in one direction, go the opposite direction. Don’t rely on FEMA to save you. Katrina was an utter disaster. Be self-reliant! Have a plan and a location, or even several locations (what are friends and family for, anyway?). So…we drove to our (undisclosed) bug-out place. We stayed a few days to avoid the traffic rush back, which proved to be smart because some major roads were closed due to mud accumulation. Never take anything for granted-the Covid insanity should be teaching us this as well.

We’ll get to Hurricane Henri and how it turned out, but first, let’s look at Sandy, from 2012. Sandy illustrates why you should be concerned about hurricanes, even if they are only Category 1. It’s the reason we and all those other people decided to leave…

Hurricane Sandy is now infamous in the New York area. It claimed 131 lives in the US alone. It was a Category 1 when it hit, with 80 mph winds. But don’t let a minor Category rating fool you into thinking a storm is not dangerous. According to the National Oceanic & Atmospheric Administration, “The Saffir-Simpson Hurricane Wind Scale is a 1 to 5 rating based only on a hurricane's maximum sustained wind speed. This scale does not take into account other potentially deadly hazards such as storm surge, rainfall flooding, and tornadoes.” At its worst, Sandy was a Category 3 and then deceptively turned into a mere tropical storm. Soon after, it picked up speed and made landfall in New Jersey. It dumped up to 12 inches of rain in some areas, caused massive power outages (our power was shut off before it even hit) and sent 20,000 people to shelters (not where you really want to be-they ain’t no Hiltons). Tragically, most of the deaths were due to drowning, many in their own homes. Other causes of death were trauma, carbon monoxide, car accidents and electrocution (see note below). Some of the reasons reported for why people failed to evacuate were: fear of homes being looted, misjudging severity of the storm and having no access to transportation. Another possible reason is one may want to stay with his home in case it is damaged, thinking the damage could be better managed. This is not entirely without logic, though is it worth risking your life? In addition, you may not be able to obtain services for some time and do you really want to wait out a storm with a tree in your living room? But…we stayed through Sandy…and it was terrifying at the height of the storm, the wind howling and fearing a tree would careen through a window at any moment. We prayed and we were fine-not even one tree came down.

The day Henri hit was both the feast of the Queenship and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Toward the eastern end of Long Island lies the Shrine of Our Lady of the Island, with its huge statue of Our Lady overlooking the Atlantic Ocean, a short distance away. She seems to be protecting us upon a great stone, holding up her Divine Child. There is much devotion to her on this little island, which contains 2 of the boroughs of New York City. Henri veered to the east, weakened to a tropical storm (just under Category 1) and made its main landfall in Rhode Island. However, New York did get some of the brunt. There was record-breaking rainfall with major flooding…also power outages and fallen trees. Our area was pretty good and there was no damage to our house. Sadly, 2 deaths took place (according to my research, but full reporting may take some time) in North Carolina, due to riptides.

A week later, we are still re-assembling our yard. It was a lot of work dealing with all the things on the deck, plants, statues, solar lights and my collection of chimes (don’t want anyone killed by flying chimes) around the property. Turned out we had no damage at all! How did our preparedness help in this situation? If we had to stay, we have 2 generators with a supply of gas, along with general supplies. We have cultivated good relationships with our neighbors. And we’ve been to confession. Some things we need work on: communications, organizing of supplies and home improvement. That is why prepping is a lifestyle-there is always something to improve and to learn. The recent landscaping was extremely valuable. As for going on the road, it is good that we are used to traveling and always have supplies, including a serious survival bug-out bag, in the car. Our remote location is also stocked with supplies.

Hurricanes give you only a few days warning at best and other kinds of disasters can come on suddenly. Then there is the societal trend toward greater instability and the emerging New World Order, which is another whole level of preparedness. Please stay tuned to this blog, as we will continue these conversations in the coming days.

Important safety note if your basement is flooded…

Take great care before venturing into a flooded basement, because death by electrocution is a possibility. My own cousin knew a family who lost both a father and his son during Hurricane Sandy on Staten Island, due to this very situation. If you have any doubt, please call for help before entering your basement. Also, do not enter any dangerous or dark areas of your house without a flashlight, in the event you are caught suddenly in a power outage (this actually happened to me and it wasn’t fun).

Image courtesy https://www.ourladyoftheisland.com

Find the Spaces / Feast of Saint Clare

There is a reason the internet is called the “World Wide Web.” The truth is being told. It is one of the New World Order’s chief instruments of influence, control and surveillance. The “net” in “internet” is no accident either. Truth always must be shown in plain sight for those who have eyes to see. “Weaving Spiders Come Not Here,” from Shakespeares’s A Midsummer Night’s Dream, was taken by the Bohemian Club in California, as their motto. Deeply ironic, since they are the weaving spiders, or at least a faction, behind the horrifying world which is encroaching upon us. When man loses his relationship with his Heavenly Father, we will inevitably begin to see a Hell on earth. That’s everything outside your window, in a nutshell.

But the wonderful thing about webs, is they contain lots of space. Space you can escape through. As we discussed recently, nature always teaches us something. It is never hopeless. There are wonderful worlds lying just beyond the entrapment. Find the space, crawl through, and you are on the other side…free. Always believe this is possible (if you’re on this blog, you’re already doing it). Find the places where you can function comfortably. Find the like-minded people. Find the gems just a stone’s throw from the prisons…the holy places apart from the degraded culture…and if you can’t find it, CREATE IT!

Today is the traditional feast of Saint Clare of Assisi, whose actual name was Chiara, which was the name of my Sicilian-born grandmother, who I was named after. Got that? Just as my patron saint, dear Chiara did when escaping her abusive father, we must have the fortitude and self-esteem to seek out our own freedom and well-being. She started the Poor Clares and became one of best known and loved saints of antiquity. How much can we, at this critical hour, accomplish if we take her example, detach ourselves from the world and create something new and amazing?

"Ask, and it shall be given you: seek, and you shall find: knock, and it shall be opened to you."

Matthew 7:7

Santa Chiara of Assisi, Pray for Us!

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August is Dedicated to the Immaculate Heart of Mary

~~~ immaculate heart of mary, pray for us! ~~~

Whatever our difficulties and sorrows may be, we have been given, by Our Lord Himself from the Cross, the most wonderful of Mothers! Let us this month, flee to her in all our need and honor her Most Immaculate Heart, so desiring of reparation. This is a fabulous time to start the “Communion of Reparation 5 First Saturdays,” instituted by Our Lady of Fatima. The feast of the Immaculate Heart is celebrated on the 22nd, along with the Queenship of Our Lady-what a beautiful double Marian feast! Of course, we also have the Assumption, a holy day of obligation, on the 15th, along with several other feasts of Our Lady this month. August gives us 3 saints with particular love for Mary: Saints Alphonsus, Dominic and Maximilian Kolbe. In addition, we celebrate the father of the Blessed Virgin, the day after the Assumption. Let us not forget the Transfiguration of Our Lord, the 4th Luminous Mystery, on the 6th.

We honor both Saint Teresa Benedicta and Saint Maximilian Kolbe, who met their deaths at Aushwitz, Kolbe one year earlier. We also have Saint Rose of Lima and Saint Fiacre, both patrons of gardeners on the 30th!

We have spent the past year giving the titles (names attributed to them) of all 35 Doctors of the Church. We will now begin to provide one of their best-known works with each noted feastday. This month, we honor 3 of the most superlative Doctors! Saint Alphonsus has been noted as the most popular writer of all time (including Shakespeare)…Saint Bernard is quite possibly the most prolific miracle-worker of all time…and Saint Augustine has been called the “Doctor of Doctors,” his Confessions being the most widely read spiritual book for 1,000 years.*

Here are some notable feasts this month from both the old and new calendars:

8/1-St. Alphonsus Liguori, Doctor of the Church, Founder of the Redemptorists, author The Glories of Mary

8/2-St. Alphonsus Liguori (trad)

8/4-St. John Vianney / St. Dominic, Seer of the Holy Rosary

8/5-OUR LADY OF THE SNOWS

8/6-First Friday / TRANSFIGURATION OF OUR LORD

8/7-First Saturday

8/8-St. John Vianney (trad) / St. Dominic (new)

8/9-St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross (Edith Stein), Jewish convert, killed at Aushwitz

8/11-St. Clare (Chiara) of Assisi

8/12-St. Clare (Chiara) of Assisi (trad)

8/14-St. Maximilian Kolbe, martyred at Aushwitz / VIGIL OF THE ASSUMPTION

8/15-THE ASSUMPTION OF THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY (Holy Day of Obligation)

8/16-St. Joachim, Father of the Blessed Virgin

8/17-OUR LADY OF KNOCK

8/20-St. Bernard of Clairvaux, Doctor of the Church, author Canticle of Canticles

8/21-St. Pius X, Pope of the Eucharist

8/22-QUEENSHIP OF THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY / IMMACULATE HEART OF MARY

8/23-St. Rose of Lima, Patroness of Gardeners

8/24-St. Bartholomew, Apostle

8/27-St. Monica, Mother of St. Augustine / SEVEN JOYS OF THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY (non-standard)

8/28-St. Augustine of Hippo, Doctor of the Church, author Confessions

8/29-Passion of St. John the Baptist

8/30-St. Rose of Lima (trad) / St. Fiacre of Brie, Patron of Gardeners (non-standard)

* Source: The 35 Doctors of the Church Buy it!

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Some Brief Comments: Traditionis Custodes

If you haven’t read my personal Tridentine Mass testimony, please read “About CF Mathews,” button to the right>>> I cannot tell my life story without mentioning this, because this Mass changed the course of my life and my entire way of thinking. You would not be reading this blog right now, if my husband-to-be had not brought me to this glorious Holy Mass in that summer of 1988. Also, 20 years ago, when my husband and I were deciding where to move to on Long Island, the presence of a traditional Catholic community was a large factor. This “Mass of the Ages” remains at the center of our lives and hopefully will continue to until we go home to Our Lord.

I am illustrating here, the brutality of Traditionis Custodes. I know we are not the only family to have constructed our lives around this Mass with the hopes of establishing new friends and a place to raise our children, apart from the corrupt influences of the world. As I am writing these words, many families have already had the rug pulled out from under them, after perhaps, giving everything to possess this Mass. A down-payment on a house, a job close to the Mass, a school, relationships and years of their lives invested. This situation reminds us that nothing is ever certain in this life, which from a prepper point of view, is a good lesson. Actually, many “Latin Massers” have become used to a somewhat nomadic life. Even here on Long Island, we have done some bouncing from church to church. It seems this is the attitude we must have, going forward…we will follow the Tridentine Mass to the ends of the earth!

In light of the above, it goes without saying that I am shocked and deeply saddened by this most current Motu Proprio. However, I do believe God would not allow it, unless it was for His greater glory and the ultimate good of souls. So even now, we must remain joyful and trusting! As I continue to absorb the implications of this document, I may continue to give commentary on it in the coming days, as it strikes me. Things remain undisturbed on Long Island, under Bishop John Barres. Please feel free to contact us with any of your stories or prayer requests at this time.

Note: You may feel the above concerns have been overstated. As I said, many of us are used to moving around with the old Mass. Some local shifting is not a huge concern. However, there are parishes which are fully traditional, which have been there for years, where people truly build their lives and did not foresee this coming. From Traditionis Custodes, Article 3, Point 5: “The bishop of the diocese” is “to proceed suitably to verify that the parishes canonically erected for the benefit of these faithful are effective for their spiritual growth, and to determine whether or not to retain them.”

Blessed Lord have mercy upon Thy Holy Church at this hour!

Our Lady, Mother of the Church, pray for us!

And in this Year of Saint Joseph…

Saint Joseph, patron of the Universal Church, pray for us!

Flower #2...

Lillies

Lillies are ubiquitous, but how much do you know about them? They certainly are beautiful, most are fragrant, they support pollinators and are easy perennials, grown from bulbs. Some grow as tall as 6 to 8 feet and are called “tree lillies.” The Daylily is of a different plant family, yet the flowers are similar. They are called “daylillies” because they blossom for only one day.

Common lillies are: Oriental (among tallest), Asiatic, Martagon (if you want numerous blossoms), Trumpet/Aurelian, Tiger (grows wild all over the New York area, where I live) and Rubrum. The white “Easter Lily” we are so familiar with is a variety of the fragrant Trumpet Lily. Here are some little-known facts about the Easter Lily which adorns our altars every year as we celebrate Our Lord’s Resurrection…

1) There are no known hazards. 2) Can often be found on the coastline. 3) According to Plants For A Future, the bulb is edible and “can be used as a vegetable in similar ways to potatoes.” 4) Also according to PFAF, the bulb has been used to treat coughs, insomnia and other ailments. 5) A fragrant essential oil can be extracted from the flowers.